"Dati nagagalit pa siya sa'kin kapag di ako naniniwala na di niya ko iiwan. E ngayon? Iniwan niya din ako."

"Bakit ba ganun mga tao, bro? Binigay ko naman lahat. Yan hirap sa mga taong minamahal 'e. Pag appreciate na nga lang gagawin nila, iniwan ka pa."

"Kung di ako iniwan non? Pinakasan ko na siya siguro.:

"Na-anticipate ko na din naman na iiwan niya ako. Yung mga signs, eh. Di na siya ganun ka sweet. Ganto, ganyan."

"One year and three months. Tinapon niya ng ganun kadali."

Those are just a few of the things I remember from the very dramatic conversation I had with one of my closest guy friends...bro, actually. Here's the deal, he was drunk and heartbroken (obviously) because his 1 year and 3 month relationship (as mentioned above) with that bitch (lol bitter sister is bitter) just ended. She left him because she wasn't happy anymore.

Naturally, being the protective sister i am to my brothers, if only it weren't against the law, when i see that bitch - i'm gonna kill that bitch..only because he hurt my brother, that's it. But reality check, that's just how love (or life for that matter) is. Sometimes, love's just really not enough and as Adele sang in her song Someone like you : sometimes, it lasts inlove but sometimes it hurts instead. One day, you wake up and you realize that the job you have, the school you study at or the relationship you're in isn't where your heart is anymore and ignoring the emptiness you feel won't do any of the parties any good. It's not simply like "giving up", it's more of realizing the need to "find yourself and figure out where your heart is".

What I'm trying to say is that, if you feel the same way as the girl who broke my brother's heart, protectiveness aside, you're not a bad person. On the other hand, if you're that person who's going to be left, believe me..it's gonna be okay. I've been on both sides and either way, it's never easy. But then again, if you value that person much more than you value your own personal issues, you don't walk away. Lol. Love's a very complicated matter and this...this is just one of those perfect examples why not to fall inlove.

Funny how a lot of things can happen in just a very short period of time. The last time I blogged, everything was just perfect...or so I thought. Right now, I'm just trying to pull all my shit together. I am not gonna break down. I cannot break down.


I honestly don't know..Is it really that amusing to watch someone who's been trying to be strong for so long fall on her face all over again? or you were just really bored and it just so happened that I seemed "play-able"? I'll probably spend months looking for answers..hopefully, I find myself too in the process. I can't explain the pain I feel right now. I don't know how to feel. I'm tired of falling for lies and getting my heartbroken. The next time I do, I'm making sure it's going to lead to something.

For quite some time, I felt sorry for myself cause you left me hanging just like that. But then, I realized..it's not me i'm sorry for - it's you i'm sorry for. You just lost someone who never would've given up on you.

I've been too lazy to post (lol what's new lazy maddie is lazy). So much has happened within the past weeks. Time really does fly fast, I'm turning sixteen in less than 3 days!!

Anyway, school's been good to me. Despite the fact that the teachers are becoming more and more demanding, my classmates and friends make life so much easier.