Funny how a lot of things can happen in just a very short period of time. The last time I blogged, everything was just perfect...or so I thought. Right now, I'm just trying to pull all my shit together. I am not gonna break down. I cannot break down.


I honestly don't know..Is it really that amusing to watch someone who's been trying to be strong for so long fall on her face all over again? or you were just really bored and it just so happened that I seemed "play-able"? I'll probably spend months looking for answers..hopefully, I find myself too in the process. I can't explain the pain I feel right now. I don't know how to feel. I'm tired of falling for lies and getting my heartbroken. The next time I do, I'm making sure it's going to lead to something.

For quite some time, I felt sorry for myself cause you left me hanging just like that. But then, I realized..it's not me i'm sorry for - it's you i'm sorry for. You just lost someone who never would've given up on you.